The hardest thing isn’t learning to ask for help or to show vulnerability
The hardest thing is dealing with people who don’t care to help when you ask for it or clearly need it, or who come up apathetic when you are exposing that vulnerability
I’m at a loss. I don’t know what to do.
I need $800 in the next two weeks to keep my apartment, my phone, and my car. I’m losing my job, which I haven’t been able to get to in a week because of my car, and I have no way of getting a new one, as my phone will be shut off, my car is dead, and I have no internet. None of my friends have cars that work or time to take me. No one is speaking to me, not my parents, not my friends, not the man I’m in love with. My friend cancelled our plans today, plans we’ve had for a week to help me out with some clean laundry - because I don’t have a washing machine or money for the laundromat, because her fiancée called her two hours ago saying he wanted to go out. I have $4 to my name. I’ve been stuck in this house for a week, as there’s nothing in walking distance, and my friends all have lives. I’m tired and depressed and want nothing more than for it all to just stop. The loan companies are demanding their money back, saying I can’t put it off any longer, they refuse to give me another deferment. The credit I’ve been living on when I was unemployed is gone. I don’t know what to do. It would be so much easier on my parents, my roommates, Kareem, if I wasn’t here. So much easier. If I just wasn’t alive anymore. They could get a new roommate, my parents could stop worrying about me, Kareem could have his One and not be conflicted anymore. Because I literally have no more options. I have no one I can borrow money from. I have no one who can feed me - I haven’t eaten in three days because all the food is gone and I can’t afford any more. I’m on my own and I just can’t do it anymore. I’m not good at this adult thing. I’ve tried and tried and I fail every single time.
A young black girl decided to not bleach her skin after seeing the success of Lupita Nyong’o.
Lupita Nyong’o was inspired to be an actress after seeing Oprah Winfrey and Whoopi Goldberg in The Color Purple.
Whoopi Goldberg realized she could BE an actress after seeing Nichelle Nichols in Star Trek